Not gonna lie, it’s been hard to keep my head up. I know I really should be practicing more gratitude, but it’s hard. People make things so hard.
At work, I continue to be a thorn in the side of my manager and all her lackeys, as I continue to protest their unprofessional behavior. Family, as usual is non-existent. And friend/relationship-wise, I’ve isolated myself from all the terribles, which, if you’ve been following along, has left me pretty lonely. I also can’t meet anyone because the moment I step outside my account is negative $100.
So what does that leave? Art.
This entire adventure has been for and from art. I’ve been painting, reading, writing, singing/listening to music, watching movies and overall immersing myself in art because it’s the only thing that makes me feel alive and connected to someone/something/anything.
This is my advice to those walking this lonely road along with Green Day: feast your senses. Play with art and immerse yourself in art. It’s the only human thing left that pervades, still. If anyone else feels alone and distraught over the state of the world – which I’ve definitely noticed this very much – then connect back to what makes us human: creation.
I’ve also been more engaging within the art community. What good is it to sit on my high horse and demand attention and then not give it? I’ll leave that kind of selfish royal decree to Trump. I have advised others to become villagers without trying harder to be one. Tsk tsk. It also feels great to not only connect with others, but to connect within a community that shares your same passions. Finding others that share your same feelings and ideals is so heartwarming. ❤
As a matter of fact, one of the only people I still consider is having a birthday coming up. Mind you, I cannot talk to him very much because he’s in a choiceful possessive relationship, so I won’t of course, once again, be seeing him, but I figured out what to do: a Self-Love Letter and a painting 🎨🖌️.
The letter was easy, because I love writing and cheering people up with words, but the painting took a little think. As I pressed on while painting, because I’m on this whole get-over-your-mistakes thing where I must continue despite them or use them – it came to me: Art is about evoking emotion, so what emotion am I trying to evoke? Once I did that, it became clear what I wanted was to annoy him.
Annoy him into movement! Change! I knew if I sent him an incomplete painting that was only missing one little piece, it’d annoy the crap out of him. I explained all this to him in my letter, of course, but yes, my point was to annoy him into action because I see him fading away everyday due to his own entrapment and it kills me. We’ll see if it works, but honestly it’s one the best gifts I’ve ever given. I also think it ties everything together nicely by bringing back human connection, human creation, and just humanity. We all need more of that. If I had money, I also would have sent him on a solo trip, but maybe one day in the future.
Let me know what you guys think down below!
I truly believe art will save the world.
But yes, friends and lovers, feast your senses in art. Feast your senses back into believing in humanity. As a matter of fact, I can’t wait to read Matthew McConaughey’s new book Poems & Prayers, it’s about belief and he’s right, we need that more than ever. I truly believe art will save the world.
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