Good morning lovers🪻💜
February 22nd, 2026
It’s crazy how things can still hurt you so many years later. I suppose it’s partly because those who’ve hurt me have still not changed their behavior towards me and partly because people in general still hurt me the same way. I just now give them distance – as opposed to before…
I bring this up because I planned on sharing an old LiveJournal post with you today (I still am) but the dive took me deeper into the rabbit hole than I expected and reopened old wounds. But!
Without further ado, my old LJ post. Enjoy.
Pennyroyal Tea
dude…outta body experience. haven’t had one of those since last summer. hehe…cool. oO before any of you think i’m ten feet up in the air, let me just take a moment to update for those of you interested. i’ve been staying at Rossana’s house (poor Shana) for the past three weeks. i’d like to think i’ve made an effort and a difference to make Shana’s existence in this household (which is pretty much her world) if not a better place, one a little bit less stressful. she can use all the help she can get. this is of course, not to imply that my staying isn’t for my sanity as well. since i’ve been here, all i’ve received from their part is a fone call from my mom on my birthday. thanks mami. i need this house much more than it needs me…
i’ve pretty much been going to school and working, and the way my schedule was worked out it really was work/school/work. school’s over now. i had my two and only finals last Thursday: let’s all keep our fingers crossed. i seem to be okay with work now. at least, i think i’m doing okay. i’ve gotten the hang of the ol’ grind, but they really know how to exploit us there. especially, a certain someone i know. he’s in good form. *giggles* alright alright, he’s doing great! he treats me like royalty and i still don’t understand why… i tell myself i shouldn’t question, that i should just accept. but i can’t seem to stop analyzing and picking-apart. it’s in my nature. i don’t think i’ll ever stop asking myself why me? what makes me so special? the answer doesn’t really matter because regardless of my stupid temper, short fuse, violent fits, annoying stubborness, and no matter how many times i may hang up on him on one fone conversation…he keeps coming back…
Much love to all my peeps out there: Kitty, Cathy, Shana, Mary, Officer, Michy, Martha, *cough* Guille!
💜
Nessa Grey
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